she's predator posing as a housepet

dementes @ 2009-06-09T22:04:00

2009-06-09T12:10:43Z

it's been a month since i updated my livejournal. this makes me very very sad, but also not so much. whatever i had with this journal, is gone. momentarily, or not i don't know. i will read and comment, but i wont write anymore.

if you're interested;
i am at tumblr. i am at twitter.
i am at curio. i am at flickr.
... and if and when i write
it will be at dreamwidth

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dementes @ 2009-05-07T16:50:00

2009-05-07T06:59:07Z

april29 - not well today.

april30 - twisty turny knotty evil stomach

may01 - night at home, alone. drink drink relax relax bad television loves me and i am happy.

may02 - homemade pizza night.

may03 - have disappeared into the bedroom for the night with the laptop. only so much boy
i can take, even when i am in a good non combative mood, which i am not.

may04 - i love hoodie weather.

may05 - rushing down vulture street in a cab tonight on our way home from poker.

may06 - no, i didn't brush my hair today. no, i don't care that i had to go grocery shopping.
yes, i am starting to get sick. yes, i would like another coffee. thank you.

dementes @ 2009-04-29T01:50:00

2009-04-28T16:08:14Z

april22 - consider the contrast fucked with.
still, rainbows as i was leaving work? awesome.

april23 - we went bowling. i like to bounce the ball.
not on purpose, it just kind of happened that way.
this board shows me winning. in two frames
i lost to mr matthew by three. no matter! fun.
also one of my 101project goals ^_^

april24 - sparklers for no reason? why not?

april25 - sky needle in west end. i hate it.. i think
because i have to see it all the time. it caught
on fire a while back and they're
finishing up the refurbishment. as of two days ago,
it now glows red and green of a night time.
lucky for anyone who happens to live in the area.
who needs sleep anyway?

april26 - just under the wire at 11.57

april27 - day off meant sitting around watching t.v.,
tidying the house and randomly singing to myself.

april28 - i have always always wanted graceful feminine hands. i want to run fingers through hair,
i want to trace patterns on backs, i want art to flow... but these
are what i have instead. my work makes my hands horrible, unappealing and manly.
i have callouses and scratches and cracks. when asked what i would change
about my body, i never answer my weight (which should most definitely be the obvious answer)
... i want slender gorgeous hands.

dementes @ 2009-04-21T21:17:00

2009-04-21T11:26:23Z

i should really keep up with posting my 365project photos here (especially since it seems to be the only thing i use my livejournal for at the moment) and i promise i will tryyyyyyyyy... not that you care, just for my own ease. ha! until then, i present to you:

april12 - 101project, 43. make an edible cake. i did, it was. banana. i don't like banana and as such, did not eat any but i fed it to my residents and they all asked for a second piece so i guess it wasn't too bad ^_^

april13 - rainy day today. this is brisbane city from the corner of melbourne and boundry streets in west end at about five thirty tonight on our way home.

april16 - i have a lot of scars and they all tell my story. this one is a nothingness. when i was twelve or so i had a mole removed. i like the shape of it. i always wanted to get it tattooed, but i don't know what it's meant to be yet.

april17 - cam photo taken for smile friday (a tumblr meme)
and since i didn't like any of the other "real" photos
i took for today, this is it ^_^

april18 - plain cake, lemon icing with dark chocolate ontop. for k. is his birthday on monday.

april19 - hunting all over the city for a watchband to no avail.

april20 - i always knew i wanted tattoos and i knew i wanted them on my inner wrists. i knew i had to do it first in case i couldn't deal with the pain. turns out the pain is one of the reasons i love it so much.

power on my right , harmony on my left. i know everyone thinks kanji are done to death. i don't care. these mean something to me. they are how i try to live my life. it took me a long time to get myself under control, and this is how i remind myself daily of who i am and how i want to be.

april21 - this describes almost exactly how i feel right this second.

dementes @ 2009-04-11T20:39:00

2009-04-11T10:43:48Z

april05 - not a very good photo at all
but my little friend, eloise does not like to be patient.
we had a lot of fun. picnics on the floor, blowing bubbles,
chasing the cat. she's the only child on the planet that i like.

april06 - oh brisbane. you kill me with your sundowns.

april07 - it was a shit of a day and
i need about eight showers. tomorrow and thursday will
be no better. worse even. i am not looking forward to it.

april08 - just a church i walked past today.

april09 - sh.

april10 - enter sparklers and party hats!

april11

dementes @ 2009-04-04T18:24:00

2009-04-04T08:28:06Z

april04 - meet loserface. he is cooler than you because he gets to hang out with katie west
all day every day. admit it. you're jealous.

april03 - watching scrubs, talking to myidentity ... house to myself, lots of wine... happy friday night.

april02 - this is me looking slightly annoyed that k made my
should-have-been 365 dirty, even though it wasn't!

april01 - grocery shopping? after a ten hour day?
yes, because you have to eat eventually.

dementes @ 2009-03-31T19:50:00

2009-03-31T09:56:18Z

march25 - "fuck work" is all i think all morning but i have to go sometime.

march26 - best part of having two short days at work
where i finish at one pm is that i can go home,
shower and have a nap on the lounge while
pretending to watch t.v.

march27 - fucking around, watching t.v.,
waiting for friends to come online, yada yada.

march28 - because when your boy cooks you bacon and eggs
for breakfast at two in the afternoon because you slept
in due to overindulgence the night before he deserves
to have a photo taken and posted to illustrate how
awesome he is? yes. something like that.

march29 - my favourite dress is also
the ugliest piece of clothing i own...
which just makes it even better.

march30 - a girls gotta have a lunch break.

march31 - started the day with a headache.

dementes @ 2009-03-24T22:36:00

2009-03-24T12:42:06Z

march24 - not much to be said for henry miller that he doesn't say himself.

march23 - body weary, head full of thoughts that would happily get me in trouble.

march22 - i've spent the day in my head. napping, not quite reading, staring at the ceiling, staring at my feet.

i live at the very top of a steep hill. it is the worst part of my day, climbing that street, but sometimes once i reach the top, i get a beautiful view.

dementes @ 2009-03-22T03:14:00

2009-03-21T17:17:45Z

march18 - what can i say when the best part of my day is watching acdc on tumblr?

march19 - i play with the magnetic poetry while k cooks dinner

march20 - nothin'

march21 - after voting today, i went and raided the cupcake parlour. gooey fudge which i have already eaten (messy and delicious!) and a rocky road which i am saving for 3am or something equally as deserving of another cupcake.

march19 - he says he can tell how i'm feeling by my hair. this is 'crazy hair', big wrinkly weird. he's right. it reflects my mood perfectly.

dementes @ 2009-03-17T22:32:00

2009-03-17T12:36:17Z

day74 - march15

day75 - march16

day76 - march17

march16 - bonus

dementes @ 2009-03-14T23:47:00

2009-03-14T13:49:47Z

day72 - march13... i hate this picture, but somehow it's the only one i took yesterday.

day73 - march14... watching television and realized i was crying. i don't know why.

dementes @ 2009-03-12T20:18:00

2009-03-12T10:18:55Z

march 12 - another day ahead

dementes @ 2009-03-11T22:14:00

2009-03-11T12:15:55Z

march11 - feeling a bit out of sorts today

dementes @ 2009-03-10T21:46:00

2009-03-10T11:50:37Z

day69 / march10

day68 / march09

day67 / march08

day66 / march07

day65 / march06

dementes @ 2009-03-05T21:48:00

2009-03-05T11:52:56Z

apparently i neglected to post 365photos here? ohwell! maybe a once a week wrap up is a better idea anyway. who can say. now, for your viewing pleasure:

day60 - amanda fucking palmer at the tiv

day61 - for a the sleep prompt at PT

day62 - oops. nearly forgot.

day63 - fucking awesome so far

day64 - oh be quiet

dementes @ 2009-03-01T00:14:00

2009-02-28T14:22:58Z

february27 - on my way to work.

february28 - shopping? new skirt? in the change room? yes.

february28 -self portrait? messing around with the camera? how i felt last night at about one thirty? who can say.

kiwi fruit for breakfast ^_^

waiting for the bus this morning. why the fuck not eh?

donuts. again, why not? because they make me feel ick! no more.

dementes @ 2009-02-26T19:33:00

2009-02-26T09:33:49Z

february26 - sour gummi worm goodness. yum.

dementes @ 2009-02-24T18:21:00

2009-02-24T08:31:05Z

february23 - went swimming this afternoon after work,
then on to jackpot noodles for dinner. sweet and sour pork is
a standard that i love but never choose because i always think
"oh, i can have that anytime!"

february24 - i hunted this photo of myself out.
the codexed.com/picture-this prompt of the week is youth,
and this photo reminds me of the good bits of growing up.
unfortunately, i don't recall a lot of being a kid
because most of it was horrible (or so i'm told) but
i remember things like this. that shirt for one.. oh dear.
tomboy much? mhm. i was about five here.

taken at my mother and step-fathers wedding.
i was, of course, the flower girl. i kept falling over the dress.
also, the microwave blew up, the toilet backed up
and it rained on the outdoor wedding. surely
someone can read signs? no? ohwell.

dementes @ 2009-02-22T21:23:00

2009-02-22T11:24:45Z

february22 - k laying in bed, writing a letter. quiet nights.

dementes @ 2009-02-22T01:20:00

2009-02-21T15:21:36Z

february21 - twelve dollar wine and y the last man.

dementes @ 2009-02-20T22:33:00

2009-02-20T12:37:52Z

february19 - one of my 101 things is to teach myself
to make ten origami stuffs so i wasted my overtime
afternoon at work, googling easy origami and all i
could mange was this wonky pinwheel. i’m cool with
that though. who needs a stupid hopping frog anyway?
really? i do. i will have one too. i will make one.
you see if i don’t.

february20 - obtained today. super!excited

dementes @ 2009-02-18T21:08:00

2009-02-18T11:10:53Z

i left work early yesterday
my girls (twins) had an hour
with their support worker and they did some painting.
M did this. she doesn't know what
it is, but i nearly cried
when i saw it because it's
very obviously the bushfires
snuck into her brain through unwatched
news reports or something.
this is a woman who does not
connect at all with anyone.
you have to say her name four times
before she'll even look at you.
*sighs* anyway.

dementes @ 2009-02-17T20:35:00

2009-02-17T10:38:11Z

february17 - at home alone, heroes and the rain to keep me company

dementes @ 2009-02-16T22:49:00

2009-02-16T12:55:01Z

february15 - a lot of reading to do!

february16 - a package arrived from a friend today ^_^ most excellent

february16 - a sister picture to the stars a while back.

dementes @ 2009-02-15T17:50:00

2009-02-15T07:57:21Z

caught in a heavy down pour on the way home today. somewhere to hide for half an hour? yes, thank you.

two very tired people, but whole heartedly enjoyed uplate at GoMA tonight (feb13).

drunk webcam edition ^_^